No. Not like that. I am still in my marriage. 100%. What I mean is stepping out from the shadow.
There is a part of me that feels more comfortable when Mark is in the spotlight and I’m hiding behind him. I’ve spent much of my life hiding like that. It’s not a bad thing. It’s just a thing. There is a certain intelligence in knowing where our strengths lie, and knowing when to step out versus when to allow the bolder partner to stand in the forefront.
Mark waited for years for me to write a book before he finally jumped ahead to complete the task. And I was more than happy to cower behind him while nudging him to keep going forward into that light. I still haven’t completed a writing project but I continue to keep a few of them simmering.
We’ve been working on a new plan. It means letting go of a few things — like Earthly Journeys (stopped operations mid-April, 2016) — and Mark is seeking a new path for FUSE Community Work Hub. We are beginning to focus on a new commitment to writing and publishing. It will be a long slow build. Building our author platforms one reader at a time. Building services that support authors and independent publishers, raise the bar for self-publishing and make the most of our skills.
I feel fortunate to have found a skill that is also a passion. I love editing. I want to shout about it. Well, I don’t really want to, but I am learning how to. I’ve been doing it quietly in the shadows for more than ten years, but now I’m going professional. I joined the Editors’ Association of Canada. I created a LinkedIn account. I have a new resume. I’m ready to shine.